New Numbers

The past two days have been emotional.  But life goes on, as they say, and I have a promise to my Aunt that I’m going to work my hardest to keep!  So yesterday, even though I felt I could have done anything else, I got on the elliptical and did my hour.  I ate healthily, albeit less than what I should.  Today I walked for 40 minutes, and am trying a new recipe.  Things will get better.

I saw new numbers both yesterday and today.  I’m hoping to continue to see new numbers, and pray that I don’t fluctuate like I did last week.  Yesterday I saw 202.9, and today I saw 202.7.  This weekend I will be seeing my soon-to-be father-in-law, and I’d like to tell him that I’m down 19lbs from when I started.  I know he is disappointed in my lack of job right now, but maybe this will off-set it, when he sees how hard I am working on myself.

I’m starting to see my sides tuck in a little more, which is giving me a more hourglass shape.  I’m not quite sure yet if that is what I’ll be at goal, but one can hope!  From what I understand it’s the most desired body shape, so I’m looking forward to seeing it.  I could also be a rectangle/brick shape (I really hate those terms for it), which also wouldn’t be terrible.  Those two body shapes give a lot of versatility in clothing, so…yay!

Happy Dance!

Food Diary for 7/30/13:

Homemade salad, calories were a guesstimate!

1 Dannon Light & Fit Greek Strawberry-80 calories

1 Asian Style Salad w/ Chicken*-410 calories

30 Baby Bay Scallops-165 calories

1 Special K Chocolate Pretzel Bar-90 calories

1 Fruttare Strawberry & Milk ice cream bar-110 calories

1 pkg Special K Pastry Crisps-100 calories

1 Café Escapes Chai Latte-60 calories

Total Calories-1015

I Worked out for an hour on the elliptical, and my fitbit adjusted 273 calories, so my NET calories for the day was 742.

The estimate of calories burned on the machine is waaaaay off!

Music Addition

I’m bringing in some instrumental music today in the form of Spontaneous Me by Lindsey Stirling!

Enjoy!

Late Night Basics

Just another Basic post for me tonight, folks!

Food Diary for 7/29/13:

2 cups coffee with 4 tbls creamer-120 calories
5.5 oz chicken breast-176 calories
1 cup liquid egg whites-120 calories
1 wedge laughing cow cheese-35 calories
2 tbls salsa-9 calories
1 WW divine triple chocolate ice cream-110 calories
1 Dannon Greek Light & Fit Strawberry-80 calories
1 Serving cinnamon Pita Chips-179 calories
Total calories-829

I did take my dogs for a 40 minute walk yesterday, but was sedentary the rest of the day so my fitbit adjusted 0 calories.

Music Addition

Today's Addition is Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson!

Enjoy!

The Basics

Just the basics for this post today.

Food Diary for 7/28/13:

1 Tall Skinny Cinnamon Dolce Latte-100 calories

3 Salmon Nigiri Sushi-135 calories

4 Chicken Teriyaki Skewers with 2 cups lightly sauced veggies-408 calories

1 serving Chicken Taco Casserole-165 calories

2 Tbls Salsa- calories

2 Tbls Reduced Fat Sour Cream-35 calories

1 WW Divine Triple Chocolate Ice Cream-110 calories

8oz Red Wine-213 calories

Total Calories-1175

I worked out for an hour on the Elliptical, and my fitbit adjusted 161 calories, so my NET calories was 1014.

Raiding Obesity

He kicked my butt this week

7/22/13-203.8 (Start Fight!)

7/23/13-205.3 (Boss: Self-Heal)

7/24/13-205.3 (Boss: Stall Time)

7/25/13-204.8 (Me: Stab)

7/26/13-204.8 (Boss: Stall Time)

7/27/13-203.4 (Me: Stab)

7/28/13-204.3 (Boss: Self-Heal)

7/29/13-204.3 (Boss: Stall Time)

This past week was not a good week.  I was under stress, did not get good sleep, and my eating was all over the place (and I still blame the pancakes….freaking pancakes).  I’m hoping this upcoming week is better, although with the recent news of my Aunt passing, I will be happy if I can just keep my weight consistent.

Music Addition

Today’s Addition is not something I’d use for exercise, but it is a beautiful, if melancholic, song.  Time to Say Goodbye by Sara Brightman and Andrea Bocelli.

Take a moment and think about your loved ones, if you can.  Time is so fleeting, but memories are forever.  Appreciate every moment you have!

Angels

Today the world has lost a truly great woman.  While I’m not a religious person, I’d like to believe that she is an Angel now, because if there was anyone who was deserving of it, she was.  

An Angel's Perch, as my Grandma would say

My Aunt Val was amazing!  She was my mother’s sister and best friend, and I ache to know how much my mother is hurting right now.  For her, I will stay strong and be that pillar of strength she needs from her daughter.  My Aunt helped raise me when I was a child, teaching me some of the things that have shaped me into the woman that I am.

Though time and distance has made staying in touch harder, my love for my Aunt has never diminished.  I was lucky enough to see her in March, and we were able to have a great time and do the things she enjoyed doing!  She saw me at my heaviest weight, and the one regret I have is that she won’t get to see me at my goal weight.

So this is my promise to you, my dear Aunt Val:  Every inch, every ounce, every dress size, I lose it all for you.  You died struggling with your health from fighting off cancer, and I know you wouldn’t want anyone else to suffer those same issues.  Being overweight increases all those risks, and I won’t let that happen.  I love you Aunt Val, I always have and always will.  May you Rest in Peace.

Arghhh Pancakes!!

So remember that candle I talked about yesterday, the one that smelled like one of the most delicious breakfast foods ever?

Yea, this candle

Yea, I ended up making pancakes yesterday.  I was feeling guilty as I made the batter, feeling even more guilty when I added a touch of cinnamon and splenda to it, I was miserable with guilt as I poured it into the pan and watched the little bubbles form on the top indicating that the pancake needs to be flipped, and I was regretting eating them as soon as I put the deliciously fluffy bite right into my mouth.

But I was committed to the pancakes, I wanted that golden deliciousness, that carb-y goodness that only pancakes (and maybe waffles) can provide.  I counted the calories meticulously, and refused both butter and syrup, determined to at least keep these treasures of tastiness within my calorie limit for the day.  And I did!  I was very proud of myself!

But the scale was not my friend this morning, and I am disappointed in myself for giving into the temptation.  I knew the pancakes were not going to help, and I tried justifying it by keeping it within my calorie limit.  But instinctively I knew that with that many carbs (and there were a lot of carbs), the number on the scale was going to reflect reality…I can’t eat that many carbs and expect any kind of weight loss.

It’s sad…I really do love things like pasta, bread, pancakes, waffles, French toast, and all sorts of other pastries and cakes and pies!  I understand that moderation is key, but I have to wonder if at any time, I can introduce these back into my diet with some sort of frequency.  Would I be able to have pancakes on Sunday Morning without feeling like a balloon the next day?  Will I be able to eat birthday cake without wanting to crash diet?  Can I have friends and family over for spaghetti dinner without the fear that I won’t be able to fit in my clothes for the week?

Hmm...things to ponder, I suppose.

Food Diary for 7/27/13:

1 Dannon Light & Fir Greek Strawberry-80 calories

1 serving Chicken Taco Casserole-165 calories

2 Tbls reduced fat sour cream-35 calories

2 Tbls Salsa-9 calories

1 Cup Pancake Mix-440 calories

1 Multigrain Sandwich Thin-100 calories

1 Starkist Tuna low sodium-70 calories

1 Laughing Cow Wedge-35 calories

2 Tbls Roasted Red Peppers-50 calories

1 cup coffee w/ 2 Tbls creamer-60 calories

Total Calories-1044

Although I didn’t really go above and beyond with any exercise, apparently I did something right because my fitbit adjusted 220 calories, meaning my NET calories for the day was 824.  I’d really like to know what I did, lol!!  I did get a good night’s sleep the night before, although I woke up with that terrible pain in my neck (which is still there, by the way), so I think that must have something to do with it. 

Music Addition

Today’s Addition is a web browser commercial!!!  But really, it’s the song Too Close by Alex Clare, which was featured in a commercial!

 

Enjoy!